Every time I succeeded in anything something would happen and take it all away from me. Their was a time in my life I was so happy go lucky it would piss people off.
That time was short lived. Now I find it hard to crack a smile. I am so consumed with thoughts about the future. I can't focus on anything else. I can't sleep many of nights because these thoughts just consume my mind.
I been with the same man for 10 years he won't get married. I have no security in my life. I don't even have life insurance anymore.
I been without a car for a year finally got a good used car. The car I just bought got stolen in the Walmart parking lot. I had no theft insurance and the cops have not found the car. So I am back to no car again.
I am in my 40's and I am still having dumb shit like this happening to me. Why God? What am I doing wrong? I fear that I will be an old lady on the street that no one cares about. How do I get out of this mess?